Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Honey Beef Rice

May 27, 2002
11:32 am
From him to her

(original subject: Good Morning Email #1)

Good morning, Genevieve! How was your first weekend in the Lowlands so far? Gotten over jet lag already? I hope so.
Got into the office late by 5 minutes, as usual. Actually I would've beaten the clock hadn't Roylann called me on the sidewalk to catch my attention. He came with Reims and Ritchie 'cause he slept over with them in San Juan. Guess they had to render OT over the weekend for FMS. Oh, well.
My weekend was rather uneventful. Friday night, bought some chichirya along the way home for our Friends VCD telethon. Saturday morning, started to read the Fellowship of the Ring. Got sleepy after a while. Saturday afternoon, tried to read the Fellowship of the Ring again. Got sleepy after a while. Saturday night, more VCD viewing: this time its The Matrix. Before going to bed, tried to read the damn book one more time. In vain.
Sunday lunch was spent at a high school friend's son's baptismal. And I got the best compliments of the weekend so far: "Andrei, tumaba ka a! Ano ba'ng pinaggagagawa mo?" "Mukhang hiyang ka a. Meron na yatang nag-aalaga e."
That settles it. It's Honey Beef Rice, Glazed Chicken Rice, or Fish and Fries for dinner forever.
Heard Mass at 6:30. Gave my share of the budget for our Subic outing this coming weekend. Gastos na naman. Leche.
Remember the mass demonstration I talked to you about at the gate of our subdivision? The one you said was a really brilliant, contrived excuse for the boys' night-out with Sir Luc? Well, it happened again, minutes before I got off the jeep. Someone got shot again. All the tricycle drivers fled for safety. So there I was, trapped, home just a few meters away, with nowhere to go. I asked a tricycle driver from the nearby subdivision to send me to as far as our guardhouse then I would just walk the remaining distance. Talk about firming up those shapely legs at an inopportune time.
Too tired for more dinner (had Honey Beef Rice at Jollibee after Mass--hah! Nothing can stop me now!), I slept early. I had the weirdest dream. I was sitting near the stands in a football field, strumming my guitar to Stevie Wonder's Overjoyed. (I dream not only in Technicolor, but also in Full Stereo Surround Sound! Beat that!) And then suddenly, Sir Frank came out of nowhere into the stands, holding his cellphone to his ear, speaking in angry-sounding Dutch. He was walking back and forth and ordering some people about. I was ashamed 'cause there I was playing while the others were slaving away. Then I woke up and found out it was already 7:30 am. Aha! My brain was telling me to get up and go to work! Damn these interpretable dreams...
Haaay, yun lang po. Hope to hear from you as soon as possible. So did you get to go around Paris even for a few minutes? Wish I were with you. Miss you a lot. Je te souihate bonne chance pour ton travail aux Pays-Bas!

Andrei

P.S. I think some chicken bones are lodged in Mad Cows's throat 'cause he has been gurgling and regurgitating for the past few days now. What should we do? Do you know of any remedies?

Friday, June 23, 2006

Sweet Nothings From A Silly Girl In Love

August 5, 2005
12:32 pm
From her to him


Habi!

Alam mo, Habi, I realized something. I didn’t think it was possible to be more in love with you than I was before (say, 3 months ago), but I really feel with all my heart and soul and guts that I am in love with you now more than ever! Now that I think about it, the cliché I-still-LOVE-you-but-I’m-just-not-IN-LOVE- with-you-anymore’ could be true. I think being ‘in love’ can have certain levels of intensity. The way I LOVED you the first time I said that I did is the same way I LOVE you now – true and pure and unconditional and will last until my heart is able. But that’s not my point today. My point is that I am IN LOVE with you now more than I ever was in my whole life. And it’s such a wonderful giddy feeling that I hope it doesn’t end!
Don’t mind me lah.
4 1/2 work hours to go!

In love and loving it,
Habi

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Lazy Sunday Afternoon

June 17, 2002
5:55 pm
From him to her
(original subject: Good Morning Email #x)


My dear Habi,
Yesterday, on this side of the world, I was doggedly trying to carry on my vicarious adventures with Frodo and his purportedly gay friends. Two paragraphs after, I was dozing off.
So there I was, peacefully taking a lazy Sunday afternoon nap, when I was rudely roused from my sleep. You know how it is when you wake up and strain your wits to remember a disturbing dream? Hah, wonder of all wonders! I dreamt that I was typing away on my PC, when I took a sidelong glance, and there you were on your PC! You were looking through me--no Thea blocking your line of sight, thank God--two slits of wonderful smiling eyes, rich russet lips, and dimples the depth of Taguig potholes. You stood up, walked towards me, reached out your cigarette-smoke-stained hands (well, not really; will try to work on dreaming in Scents-o-Rama next time), and pinched my chubby cheeks while saying "Tabaching-ching!" Shockingly disturbing.
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real. That, was such a moment.

Habi
P.S. Dark chocolate = chubby cheeks. Thanks, baby! Mwah!

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

All I Am Is Yours

October 16, 2004
1:12 pm
From her to him


There's a part of a woman
that if you touch
will drive her crazy...


... her heart


You've touched mine in innumerable ways I never imagined possible.
Thank you, my love.


All I am is yours forever, if you'll have me.
Happy Anniversary, my dear habbibi.


Groeten from Antwerpen

April 29, 2003
Computer and Software NV
Mechelse
steenweg 121
2018 A
ntwerpen
7:35 pm
From him to her

(original subject: Totoong Email na Maraming Kwento)

Habi,

Luc just left the office and now I'm alone again (naturally). He was nice enough to accompany me to the neighborhood supermarket a block away to buy some provisions--white bread, whole milk, ham, pickles, and tomatoes. There, something healthy to eat everyday. Ü Kakalula lang kung i-convert, k'se all in all, they cost me PhP 345.

It was also Mama who bought me cereals, noodles, cookies
, and de lata. Too bad I wasn't able to bring the Tortillos and Kornets; I wasn't able to pack them all in the olive green stroller bag Papa and I bought last Saturday. Dami ngang de lata, 'la namang kanin. How will I be able to quench my carbo-hungry Filipino soul? Hehe, kakahiya nga sa Schiphol, when I passed through customs to have my luggage checked, nakita ng customs officer kung ga'no karaming food items ang dala ko, like I was hoarding them or something. Probably one of the low moments of this trip.

Luc wanted me to meet his son Patrick, who is our age (but
a lot bigger, I can just imagine, what with Luc's built). We're going out Friday night to have some beer or something.[snipped]

I also won't be working on May 1 (buti na lang ala na 'ko sa 'Pinas or else I wouldn't be spared from the no-holidays-until-ClearingPoint-is-finished decree). Maybe I'll take some time then to go around and take some real pictures. Too bad I won't be in them, unless I go acrobatic and try to do some guesswork at shooting myself along with the background.

Di naman ako masyado napapagod doing the rounds with Luc di tulad nang sa Cubepoint kung saan sobrang toxic mag-program mag
damag. I told you before, this was more to my liking--technical support--development side or deployment side. Now I begin to see his point of view, that it's really frustrating to drive all the way to a client 170 km away and the installation isn't successful so you have to drive there back again for an update. That's what happened yesterday when we went to Eynatten near the German border. Kawawa naman sila, di rin nila nagamit yung program. I was conferring with Jason through text while we were there, but the update came too late: we had to leave 'cause it was already 7 pm and it was Astrid's (Luc's wife) birthday so they were going to have a family dinner. I don't know yet kung kelan kami babalik dun.

This afternoon, after receiving the uploaded updates from Cubepoint, we drove to the port office of Steinweg Antwerp, our beta testers, to do an installation. We encountered some network path problems so we were delayed for some time. We could not afford to go to Brussels anymore to do two more clients, so we decided to go to SBTC Sotramar instead, another client in Antwerp. The installation there went along quite well, and it was very reassuring for me. I was constantly crossing my fingers while the user was trying out the program. Ü I'm learning so much about C and S's operations, and finally seeing everything in actual practice. Makes me proud to see my program (well, not solely mine, just a euphemism) being used by clients.

Yes, I never forget to take my Vitamin C ("1,000 mg a day ha") and my Revicon ("Ako pa?"). I take a bath twice a day (ewan ko ba, ang sarap kasi maligo sa mainit na tubig). After taking my evening shower, I always turn the heater on in my room and change into your fitting black shirt (biceps need work) and Papa's sweat pants over my Capri pants. Works quite nicely. I put on some lip balm in the morning and some at night. Although I can never seem to put some on while Luc and I are in the car, I don't know why.

Well, that's basically my day today. Am going to prepare my dinner now. Will have to wake up real early tomorrow cause we leave around 8 to go to Mees and De Kerf, Panalpina, and Yusen Air. Hope everything turns out well.

Je t'aimerai à fin de temps.
I will love you 'til the end of time.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

The Proposal

January 26, 2006
3:36 pm
From him to her

(In reference too Rain's
schmaltzy proposal to Lou. Hi Rain! Best wishes!)

Habi,
Huuu, aminin mo na, kinilig ka nang todo! 'Cause you never got THAT kind of proposal.No words to set the mood. No percussion, strings, or winds either. Just a question. Plain and simple.
I'm sorry you got less of an experience, that of a beginning without much ado. Because I too believed that it didn't matter where, when, or how I proposed, but that you said "Yes". Which after what felt like a lifetime you ultimately did.

Love,
Habi




January 26, 2006
5:33 pm
From her to him


Habi,

You're right,
I never got THAT kind of proposal. What I got was a thousand times more special. What better way to set the mood than a relaxing afternoon at the beach (in a foreign land, mind you), a blanket of stars (like diamonds in the sky), the sound of the ocean waves against the shore (my favorite sound in the whole world next to the sound of your voice), the majestic fortress as a backdrop, and the infinity pool (and what it stands for).
I was 'swept away without a warning, like night when morning begins the day, I was swept away' and when I came back to my senses, I had a magnificent ring on my finger (Until now, I still couldn't figure out how he managed to hold on to that ring while swimming. We were holding hands right before we went into the pool and so I knew that he wasn't wearing it.) and was serenaded with the best ever rendition of my birthday song.

No amount of cheesy words can replace all that. I cannot think of a more perfect way to start our ever after.
Love,
Habi




January 26, 2006
3:36 pm

From him to her

Revised:



Habi,

Huuu, aminin mo na,
kinilig ka nang todo!'Cause you never got THAT kind of proposal. No words to set the mood. No percussion, strings, or winds either. Just a question. Plain and simple.
I'm sorry you got less of an experience, that of a beginning without much ado. Because I too believed that it
didn't matter where, when, or how I proposed, but that you said "Yes". Which after what felt like a lifetime you ultimately did. For which I was more than glad.

Nah, it DID matter that I proposed IN a romantic island resort ON our birthday.

Love,
Habi

Gypsy Musings on a Minstrel Triptych

October 14, 2005
4:23pm
From him to her

(In reference to the supposed ghosts from her very distant past)

Habi,

When do you dismiss such an outpouring of emotion?
When do you ignore a precious love forsaken?
When do
you think no more of time and talent given?
Never, Esmeralda: for potent is the potion.

Three summers and a day I walked on paths of silver,
Wand'ring amber fields and forests ocean-vast
Come eve, I receive your ghosts of summers past
I pay no heed: still they haunt me hither.

For your gypsy soul, I'd sell my blood and breath.
If I have to drink from the gold absinthe cup,
If I have t
o scream from sundown til sun-up,
Let the ghouls come to me to fight 'til death.


Habi


October 14, 2005

5:02 pm
From her to him


Habi,

You never cease to amaze me. Really.

If you must know, I have dismissed, ignored, and thought no more of the ghosts of my summers past. They will remain ghosts and they will remain in the past. No amount of rhyme (may it be threefold) can give me a change of heart.
I am happy where I am with the man I love. And I will be happy wherever the crazy gypsy in his soul takes me for the rest of the summers of my life.


And Habi, I am no Esmeralda (although I'm wearing my Esmeralda earrings right now). I am Quasimodo the hunchback.

Love,
Habi


October 14, 2005
5:37 pm
From him to her

Habi,

Hahaha, you see details that I don't and see humor in them. Here, YOU never cease to amaze me.

Won't take the train anymore; I'll be riding bus 65 instead (the first bus I ever rode in Singapore) from Ubi Ave 2 to Jalan Besar. Then, I'll take a walk to Little India station and meet my beloved hunchback there.

Love,
Habi

The Yang To My Yin

March 17, 2006
1:40 pm
From her to him
(original subject: it runs in the family)

Habi,

Everyday God reminds me how blessed I am to have you in my life. You open my senses to things that I refuse to see, hear, and feel because I am too lazy to really think (like in reading maps) and I tend to choose the more convenient options, or because I am too busy with the little unimportant things that I forget to think outside my paradigm, or maybe I am just too proud to admit that there are certain things that I can't do by myself. In any case, you seem to always know the right things to say or do, which always seem to make sense and make me wonder why I never thought of them myself.
I've come to respect (and depend on) your view on everything. You don't just complete me, you complement me. You're my paradigm shifter, the unison to my octave, the yang to my yin. In your compulsion to symmetry, I found my own harmony.
If I am able to do for you half of what you do for me, I'd die a happy woman.

Love,
Habi

Mi Triste Corazon

August 2, 2005
10:42 am
From him to her


My love,
Work becomes a restless vocation, waiting for word from you. Cannot proceed with making a living without making a journey to the post office every so often. The heart does grow fonder with every minute it is separated from the soul.
Buenos dias, mi alma.
Love,
Habi

Little Things

August 19, 2005
1:53 pm
From him to her

(original subject: good morning!)

Habi,

Hindi ka ba naiingit at natuwa si Eunice nang husto sa pagbati ng bahista ng MYMP sa kanya sa entablado? Hindi ko siguro magagawa yun para sa iyo dahil wala akong kilalang kahit sinong musiko.Ang magagawa ko lang ay kumanta tuwing naliligo at naghuhugas ng plato dahil ako'y maligaya sa piling mo. Sana ang kaligayahan ko'y kaligayahan mo rin.

Love,
Habi



August 19, 2005
2:57 pm
From her to him


Habi,

Ang mga bagay na ginagawa mo para sa akin araw araw ay walang katumbas. Ang makapiling ka lamang ay higit pa sa kahit ano. Wala na kong hahanapin pang iba.

You make me feel special in so many ways -- the roti prata, the Nescafe mistral, the blueberry iced tea, the way you make sure I keep my balance whenever we ride the mrt, the way you bustle ever so quietly every morning so as not to wake me up, the way your tired face lights up upon seeing me whenever you come home from work, the way you listen to every word I say even when you're too sleepy, the way your face wrinkles with worry whenever I complain from backache, the way you hold out your hand for me in a crowded place, the way you immediately thought of me just by reading Eunice's email and the way you replied. All the little wonderful things you do for me every single day never go unappreciated.
I don't just feel like a princess because when I'm with you, I am one.


Love,
أميرة




August 19, 2005
3:13pm
From him to her


Tears welled up and eventually fell. Thank you so much, princess. I love you very much.

My Life Is So Much Better With You In It

September 8, 2003
3:20 pm
From him to her

Loved the e-card; so very descriptive of the situation yesterday. Pussy packing her bags, watching a movie (well, yeah, had other people been more watchful of the time and not clearing the supermarket of every imaginable merchandise!), and sleeping with a smile.
Thank-yous are indeed in order:
Thank you for standing up for me with your parents, at the cost of earning their resentment, of losing the familiar life you used to lead, and of missing the company of your little brother whom you love so dearly. My prayers are for you. But no crying, now.
Thank you for being so sweet and caring. You treat me like a king. Every second with you is time well spent, each one swinging from comfortable to adventurous in a moment's notice. Loving you is easy ('cause you're beautiful, and making love with you is all I wanna do. Ü) I could not ask for more.
Thank you for opening your doors to a new 'exception'. It was rough sailing, but it looks like visions of more wonderful journeys are mine to keep.
Ana Behibek, habbibi.

Rotterdam Routine

May 31, 2002
Par
mentierplein 1
Rotterdam, 3088
GN
Netherlands

10:20 pm
Fro
m her to him


Hi, drei! Here's my 'detailed' letter. Finally.
Well, to tell you honestly, I've been putting off writing to you because I know it will just make me miss you more. And that I really don't have much to say, except that I miss you. (If I keep on talking now, I'd only start repeating myself.. and all I can say is I miss you, I miss you,...) Haaaay. I was hoping, actually I was expecting, to have an MSN messenger installed here but no such luck. We're using 'dump' terminals, and so it's not possible because of some firewall. What that means, I have no idea.

Tigger is doing OK. If you call being shabby OK. If he had any eyes, they would have dropped out already and if he had any hair, most of them would have been loved off. I'm sure that would have been your case, too, had you come with me. Well, I wouldn't have exactly 'loved' off your ensaymada hair, but you get the picture.

We're doing pretty OK here (save for the fact, of course, that I'm dying of homesickness and that my feet are all sore because of wearing shoes everyday. Real, closed-toe shoes, mind you! And with socks, too. Makes me yearn for my personal foot masseur). Like I said in my Keep-Frank-Updated emails, we're adjusting well with the weather and the very late sunset. When we first got here, I took a nap in the afternoon and I woke up at around 930pm and the sun was still shining! I woke the guys up, hysterically informing them that there was some kind of an eclipse. Nobody warned us of this ‘phenomenon’ so we didn't believe it until it happened again the next day.

It's becoming a routine, too, for me. Wake up at 6am. Get up at 630. Try to have a decent shower (temp. at 10° - the house does have a heater but we can't use it much. The downstairs neighbor complained during our first few nights because of the noise of the broiler. We never understood what he was trying to say but two things were clear - noise and heater. So we just turned off our heaters in fear of him calling the authorities to report annoying Filipinos). Dress up at around 7. If you call putting on layers and layers of clothes dressing up. Breakfast at 715. Breakfast usually consists of Botterhamworst sandwich (botterhamworst -cold cuts variety as thin as you can imagine) with lettuce and smelly cheese, and kuya Philip's special coffee (he's always the first to get up so he makes coffee for us). Morning chitchat while having breakfast. TV tuned in to Hallmark or Discovery channel (two of the very few English networks available. Imagine Nickelodeon in Dutch!) Stephan (some cute Dutch guy from the office) picks us up at around 830am. Either that or we get up a little earlier and take the bus-train-bus route to the office. I believe I told you about the incident the other day when I lost them (or they lost me, whichever). After our bus ride#1, I boarded the train, expecting them to be right behind me (you know how fast I walk). When I discovered that they weren't in there with me, the train (similar to our MRT) was already moving. Then panic set in. Where do I get off? Where is the connecting train located? And when I did find the connecting train, I also had no idea where to get off again and which bus to take after. I don't know how I did it but I got to the office all right. Kuya Dar and Kuya Flip called from somewhere frantic with worry, thinking that I was kidnapped by some pedophile (talk about real worrywarts). I gave them a good scare. hehe. Serves them right. They've been ignoring me since we got here because of all the blondes and redheads around. Anyway, on to my routine..
Work until 1230 and then lunch (lunch for me usually consisting of rock-hard bread, tomato soup (brings back galera memories), more cold cuts and smelly cheese, orange juice and kiwi fruit) Very healthy stuff. (Which reminds me, please tell kuya Jerry to start saving up for my Saisaki eat-all-you-can. He promised to treat me there if I lose at least 10lbs. Tell him I'm losing pounds by the gallon here.) Work till 5pm and then go home. Sometimes we go to the City Central to look around and do our groceries. Establishments here close at 6pm, some even at 5! So we pretty much don't have anything to do but to go home early everyday. Dinner at around 7-8pm. Much the same as our morning rituals. TV tuned in to Hallmark or Discovery channel. (But we got lucky the other day and found Ally McBeal speaking straight English!) The 'white nights' give us the illusion that it's still early so we sleep rather late everyday. Then I cuddle up with Tigger (pretending that I'm hugging my favorite guy. Not much of a difference, really; same smell and nothing much to hug. hehe) while reading Sheldon or Mr. Oxford to make me sleepy.
Well, that pretty much sums up my usual day here in Rotterdam. Almost 7 days down. 22 days to go. Sigh.
Tomorrow we are meeting Guido in Antwerp and then he'll be driving us to Paris. I never dreamed I'd be going to Paris. Well, maybe I dreamed about it once or twice but I never really imagined that I'd actually be going there. We'll just have a look around, take some pictures, have a cup of coffee or two, maybe buy some souvenirs and then drive back home. On Sunday, we'll go to mass (we found this charming old church just around the block) even if we won't understand a word of it, then maybe shop some more in the very few shops open on Sundays.

After work today, Stephan is bringing us to the old windmills site. The windmills there, he says, are the original windmills of the 16th century and are really powered by the wind.

This is it for now. Ang haba na pala. Sabi ko I don't have much to say a. You really have a way of getting me to talk. Tsk tsk.

I hope you enjoy your Subic and EK weekends. Tell me all about it in your good morning emails, ok?
Give my love to my gels and momi.

Gen

Ghent Blues

May 14, 2003
3:24 am
From him to her


Hay, Antwerp again at last. Weird ng weather, ngayon naman, maaraw, sarap ulit lumabas. Ghent was no better than Bruges--parang once you've seen Bruges, you've seen most of Belgium. I don't know if it was the uncooperative weather, or the fact that I was walking with hand-in-pocket. Your warm hand and sweet kisses could have made it more worthwhile.
Off to Luxembourg with Luc very early tomorrow. Again, it'll be no better, para lang masabing I've travelled far and wide in a short span of time. Just have to satisfy this "crazy gypsy in my soul." But always remember, wherever we're together, that's my home. Tu es chez moi, you're my home. I love you.

Isang Mumunting Handog

October 23, 2001
2:48 pm
From him to her

(The email that started it all and our very first picture together as lovebirds - as Jamie succinctly put it)


Binibining Genoveva,

Hayaan po ninyong alayan ko kayo ng isang mumunting handog sa piling araw ng inyong pagsilang. Isang mapagpalang karawan inyo, binibini.

Ginoong Andres
P.S. Enjoy!

Friday, June 16, 2006

Thoughts on Marriage

June 16, 2006
12:33 pm
From her to him

(Three and a half years after it all started...)

Habi,

I read in one of the many 'marrying the right person' articles that every relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fall madly in love, you anticipate their call, you crave for their touch, and you love every bit of their idiosyncracies. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. The article says that it's the natural cycle of every relationship. Phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

Reading that article scared the hell out of me. At first I refused to believe (same way I refused to believe Joanne's lola that you can never go back to 'just holding hands') that it happens to EVERY relationship. I wanted to think that ours will be different. But looking at married couples around me and recalling what I learned in Economics about the Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility, I began to accept the fact that some things really change through time and familiarity. But then again, if every relationship is indeed a cycle, then it should come full circle, shouldn't it? Among all the different definitions of love, what I truly believe in is that for it to be real, it should last. The euphoria of love may fade but the love itself will not. If anything, it will blossom into something more -if I may use a term I don't fully understand- profound and pure, devoid of any embellishments that come with young love, love that consists of comfortable silences, simple gestures, and loving looks that say it all [snipped]. Now more than ever, I'm looking forward to our married life together. Bring it on! :o)

Ang gusto ko lang naman talaga sabihin ay hindi
magmamaliw ang pagmamahal ko para sayo hanggang sa ating pagtanda. Happy birthday, Habi!

Love,
Habi



June 16, 2006
3:36 pm
From him to her


Habi,
What joy in reading such a well thought-of and thought-provoking piece. You never fail to surprise me.

What joy in walking home, and looking up to see the light on from the bedroom window, and knowing that in there lies the One, your One, waiting to shower you with warm embraces and sweet kisses. Kahit ilang milya pa ang lakbayin, kung may ngiti naman sa labi pagdating, pagod ay di na alintana kapag nakita na'ng ilaw sa bintana. ;o)

What joy in looking forward to a life full of promise. God has been good, and life will get even better. So do not trouble yourself with needless things, my love. Tanggalin ang ano mang agam-agam. Slow and easy does it. Sabi nga ni Humot, "The wedding is just a dress reheasal of your life together. Just relax."
Je t'aimerai jusqu'à la fin du temps. Bon anniversaire, ma cherie.


Je t'embrasse,
Habi